Monday, March 7, 2011

Reflecting


Sometimes I sit back and think about my life everything just hits me and I can't believe how lucky I am. All my life I always wanted to be married in the temple to a man that loved me and I have always wanted to be a mom. It's so hard to believe that I am at this point in my life. I can't believe that I have already achieved two of the most important goals that I set for myself.
I love being a wife and mother even though at times both of those rolls can be challenging.
I have come to understand that every ones experience as a mother are so different and sometimes it's best to trust your own instincts. Since becoming a mother I have learned so much.
I have learned that NOTHING warms my heart more than when you smile.
I have learned that the older you get the more protective I become. I am starting to turn into momma bear.
I have learned that even though its hard waking up at 5 in the morning to get you, as soon as I see you and pick you up there is no where that I would rather be than there with you and just for a little while I forget how tired I am.
I have learned that when mothers say that they would do ANYTHING for their children I really believe them because I feel the same way.
I have come to realize that I was not prepared for how much I would instantly love you and I am learning that just when I think that I could not possibly love you any more some how my love for you keeps on growing and growing.
I have learned to type one handed (like I am doing this very moment) because sometimes I would rather hold you close to me than put you down.
I have learned that seeing your dad hold you and play with you makes me happier than I knew I could be.
I am having an unbelievable time with you. I am so, so happy that you have come to us. I can not wait to see the kind of person you are going to be.

1 comment:

  1. It's true - no matter how tired I am, going into Gage's room to get him and feed him makes me grin from ear to ear. He always has a huge smile for me, and I almost laugh out loud from that glowing feeling inside.

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